the professional nerd

i’ve only seen 2 episodes but i’m already hooked. i love the whole alias-meets-the-office feel. the show is quirky, weird, funny, and action-packed. and chuck is the cutest, most adorable geek i know (yes, even cuter than kenneth parcell).

 i heard it has been picked up for a 2nd season. good news for me! another addition to my long list of addictive shows. you gotta love C/S. prison break, heroes, survivor, and now this. nice.

a poor boy’s dream

<<flashback. june 14, 2001. UP diliman.

unang araw ng klase. unang araw ng buhay kolehiyo.

nakatayo ako sa harap ng klasrum ng unang klase ko.room 108 sa A.S. lumapit sya sa kin at nagtanong kung ano raw block ko. sabi ko, L-7. tumango lang sya at tinignan akong parang nagtataka. sunod kaming nagkita, sa orientation ng block namin sa NCPAG. natawa ako nung nalaman ko kung bakit ganun na lang ang tingin nya sa ‘kin. block L-2 pala kame. dalawa lang naman kase ang block sa ncpag, pano magkaka L-7? kitams, unang araw pa lang may katangahan na ko. pero hindi tungkol sa kin ang entry na ‘to.

dahil maraming bonding moments ang block, hindi nagtagal at naging magkaibigan kami. so wala akong choice.=)  magkasama sa mga lakad, magkaramay sa mga study sessions, at magkagrupo sa mga papers.mas naging magkaibigan ng magkasama sa pinasukang organisasyon.naging magkasama pa sa iisang komite at hindi nagtagal, naging boss ko pa ng maging chairman sya ng memcom.

sa huling dalawang taon sa kolehiyo ko sya mas higit na nakilala.marami na rin kasing pinagdaanan.andyan ang laging pagtambay sa library at STPA tambayan, pagsolb sa mga problema ng komite, kwentuhang showbiz, yung GIS project na sa totoo lang e wala naman akong masyadong kontribusyon, taga-suporta pag kelangan ng lakas ng loob, taga-tawa sa mga katangahan at kalandian, at higit sa lahat kasama sa pagbuo ng mga pangarap.

pangarap nya para sa ‘kin noon ang makatuluyan si prince william. tama, si prince william.  wala din naman ako maisip noon na pangarap para sa sarili ko, kaya sinakyan ko na rin.maganda naman ako e, malay mo. =) di katulad ko, noon pa lang buo na ang pangarap nya. gusto nya maging abugado. gusto nyang pumasa ng LAE at sa UP pa rin ipagpatuloy ang pag-aaral. full support naman ako.  hindi rin kasi naging madali ang lahat.  dumating din ang panahong pinanghinaan sya ng loob at nagduda sa kanyang kakayahan. pero hindi ako papayag na sumuko sya ng hindi lumalaban. ang sa ‘kin kasi, sya ang katuparan ng pangarap ng mga tulad kong nagmula sa probinsya na nagkaroon ng pambihirang oportunidad na makapasa sa UP. sa kabila ng kahirapan at kakulangan sa mga materyal na bagay, talino at tapang lang ang pinanghahawakan. nagsikap. naghirap. nasubok. nagpatuloy.

i needed him to get his happy ending.

>>fast forward. june 2008.

pitong taon mula noong unang araw ng klase na magkakilala kame,muli na naman syang sasabak sa buhay estudyante. ang pinagkaiba lang, UP law student na sya sa hunyo. oo, UP Law.

to the poor boy from laboy…saludo ako sa ‘yo. hindi lang dahil kaibigan kita at mahal kita kundi dahil pinatunayan mong ang mga tulad natin at  iba pang galing sa iba’t ibang sulok ng bansa ay handa sa hamon ng pagiging iskolar ng bayan.

see, dreams do come true ..even for promdis like us.

^_^

the keeper

i love them both and i wish them to be happy. in a way, i feel privileged that they trust me that much. gusto ko lang maalala ang araw na ‘to kase something big happened today. huge! =)

 

let the rain fall down

finally, i’m done with this whole i’m-so-new-to-this thing. i knew i needed my bestfriend to get me through this. true enough, he told me the things i needed to hear so i could finally decide. and i did. i’m sure now. it was nothing. false alarm. testing lang. but it was good anyway.  i’m putting this issue to rest. i wasn’t really into him. i was just overwhelmed. those are two completely different things. but thanks j for talking me through it. that’s why i love you. =)

lesson learned: don’t overanalyze things. sometimes, things are as simple as what they seem to be. no need to make a big deal out of it. go with the flow and you’ll figure it out. i’m glad i did. it’s over before it even started.hahaha.ampanget.sayang ang pagdadrama ko. =)

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ice skating is so not for me. akala ko kaya  sya ng powers ko, but no, nabigo ako. pero enjoy, perstaym experience din. nadisappoint lang ako ng slight kase andun na ko at libre na nga, di ko pa namaximize. kaines. kinabog pa ko ng mga maliliit na bata, kakaloka. habang ang mga tsikiting e mega slide slide at paikot-ikot pa, ayun ako mukhang tangang nastuck na sa gilid.at one point, nadulas pa ko. wahaha. masakit yun ha. at nakakahiya ng konti. wa poise. pero keri lang, wala namang nakakakilala sa kin sa MOA. basta enjoy ako sa lb-like gimik yesterday. bonding time with bff. =)

first time ko pala sa MOA kahapon.yikes.late bloomer. =)

 

a time for everything

as usual, magmamaganda muna ko.

madali lang ako magsawa. weakness ko yan. one minute, naaliw pa ko and the next, i’m over it. kaya ayoko muna ‘to karirin ng masyado.baka magkasakitan lang. nag-enjoy naman ako for a while. feeling ko ang haba ng hair ko mashado. di ko alam na may pambihira (whataword?) pala akong effect bilang tao. but no, hindi naman ganun kadali. kulang na lang sabihin kong it’s not you, it’s me. hahaha. maraming bagay.  kalurkey ito. out of nowhere may ganitong mga pangyayari sa buhay. hindi ako sanay. at hindi ako siguradong nasa parehong pahina kami (in english, in the same page ^__^).mahirap yun.magpapapilit muna ko.malay mo in time, maging sigurado ako. for now, parang hindi pa. =(

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tuloy na tuloy na ang baler! yehehey! di ako masyadong atat? sarp na sarp na ko. soon to be new friends, good vibes, at alon! dis is it. tayo ng magbilad sa araw. gray kung gray ang labanan. c’mon.

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we can’t always have what we want.sometimes, things are not supposed to be worth it. sometimes, we’re not supposed to be vindicated. but that doesn’t mean i’m gonna be miserable about it.maybe this isn’t the right time.maybe i’m being saved from something i’m not supposed to have.smile lang ng smile.may bukas pa.

<<rewind: kwentuhang surfing

 

dahil bago ang blog ko at marami akong free time, gusto ko lang ikwento ng mas masaya ang unang surfing experience ko. mey ganun? last night kase magkausap kami ng friend ko na si emjay na sya ding nag-introduce sa kin sa wonderful world of surfing (whattaphrase?) at naexcite lang ako sa next surf trip! baler, here i come! sure na sure na! masaya itooooo!

akshali, matagal na ko niyaya ni emjay na magsurfing pero di ko sya masyadong sineseryoso.akala ko kasi pang-laguna beach people lang yun.haha.hindi ko naintindihan kung pano nangyari, basta narealize ko na lang na nakasakay na ko sa alon. wait, di naman ganun kabilis. backtrack ng konti.

nobody said it was easy

so this is how it feels like…

…hearing someone say those words. for years you’ve waited for it to happen, for someone to say something as real and as overwhelming as that… and when it’s right in front of you, you don’t know what to do with it. what are you supposed to do with those words? what are you supposed to say? 

i don’t know how to do this….thing. this is what i’m afraid of because i think from here, there’s no turning back. i hate that i don’t know how to deal with it.

tang*na.baket ganito? ayoko mag-inarte pero nag-iinarte ako. ang haba ng hair ko. hahaha. syeeeeet.  

realize

 

follow your guts.don’t hesitate.you’ll never know what lessons and surprises are in store for you.remember that nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have changed your life.

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all of a sudden, i remember what it feels like to look in your eyes. real. familiar. comforting. but it’s all over now. enough of this. enough.

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…that the world doesn’t always play fair. i can’t go around hating people who have wronged me.sulking in misery and feeling sorry for myself won’t get me anywhere. i’m not saying i’ve learned to forgive completely, it’s just that i’ve chosen to move on. FINALLY. what’s the point of dwelling on terrible things of the past? besides, karma’s a bitch. i’m better off this side of the fence. i’ve never appreciated life more than i do now.they won’t get to me anymore. thank you lord for letting me realize this before it’s too late. hay, sabi ko di ako magsesenti sa blog na ‘to. i was so used to being all sad and pathetic before kaya naooverwhelm ako sa ganitong pakiramdam.hakuna matata.haha.happy lang.=)

balikbayan

like i said, i had a super sweet vacation (kelangan may super talaga) the past couple of weeks.biglaan ang desisyon ko umuwi.nanaginip lang ako tapos kinabukasan, narealize kong nasusuffocate na ko sa apat na sulok ng apartment at kelangan ko na ng hanging probinsya.impake agad at larga na.akala ko walking distance lang ang mindoro.in fairnes, thankful ako sa spur of the moment decision na yun kasi andaming magandang nangyari sa trip.life-changing.basta masaya ako ngayon.daig ko pa ang nagcentrum, i feel complete.haha. dahil i’m sure wala naman masyadong pakialam ang ibang tao sa journey of self-discovery ko (duh, whatever), i’ll keep some cheesy details to myself. still, i’d want to share some fun things na pinagkaabalahan ko sa bayang kinalakhan. =)

very probinsya

+april 25 ang town fiesta sa ‘min.pordat, karir to the max na ang mga opisyales ng bayan para maging eventful ang month-long celebration na ito. puno na ng mga bonggang-bonggang banderitas ang mga kalsada.feel na feel ko ang ganitong atmostphere, very festive.pati mga tao, parang laging nasa mood para magcelebrate. panay na rin ang mga announcement sa local channel ng mga nalalapit na karera ng bangka, saranggola festival, ms. tourism churvaloo, at iba pa.ang highlight sa lahat e ang big-time tiangge at perya na malapit sa plaza (or parke as we call it).dinadayo pa yan ng mga taga-malalayong barrio at bundok, take note.main attraction ang tig-limang pisong fruit shake at ang walang kamatayang beto-beto o colorgame.yung mga kamag-anak ko, inaraw-araw na ata ‘to.karir kung karir.inavail ko din pala ang panunuod ng liga ng basketbol kahit yung kakilala namin sa team na sinuportahan ko e 2 minutes lang ata naipasok, butata pa. =b

++mga dating kaklase, kakilala, schoolmate, teacher, kaibigan, at not-so kaibigan. kahit super enjoy ako makita uli ang karamihan sa mga kakilala’t kaibigan, nakakatawa lang na merong mga tao na hindi na nakaget-over sa mga high school rivalries or whatever you wanna call it.nakakaawa kayo.it’s so seven years ago, get a life already.kayo kaya may kasalanan sa ‘kin.ngayon, kayo ang nasasaktan at natatakot sa multong kayo din ang gumawa (naks, pwede na bang pang-maricel soriano script?). but thank you for being such an ass by trying to piss me off (you know who you are) , it made me realize how stupid i was for actually dwelling on our drama all these years. i.am.so.over.it.

this is how you steal a heart

i just got back from my super sweet hometown vacation. still feeling a little homesick because i suddenly miss my little brother (who’s not so little anymore).=( got lots of stories about the trip but that can wait. i just need to post this because i was totally blown away and i know a lot of people felt the same way. now this is what randy jackson meant by blazin’ hot. enjoy. =)

my heart just dropped and i was literally in tears while watching this (ang arte?). i love you brook white but….this was absolutely the best performance in the history of american idol (opinyon ko lang naman yan) and david cook is the best singer and performer this season. hands down. i’m just torn if i want him to win because if he does, they might give him a ‘commercial album’ (read: crappy) and that would be a shame. simon was right. if this was a talent competition and not a popularity contest, i think we can stop the show now and give him the title already. seriously, this guy is IT. i’ve never been this amazed and i’ve never cried over a performance since elliott yamin. yikes, this is so paula abdul. haha. = ) i must say, i never really thought he was hot until this performance. after watching the video i’m like, hellllooooo david!

sabi nga ni victoria beckham, it’s so majah. love love love it.

oh, just a thought (though i don’t think it would happen), how cool would it be to see david cook and brooke white battle it out in the finals. they could be the best final 2 ever. =)

update:neil told me to check the studio version of this song at youtube which accdg to him was”nakakapanghina”. indeed it is. haay. =)

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the choices we make today

i’m not used to being happy but it sure feels good. i’m enjoying this new-found attitude, it’s liberating. so done being emo. i’m all for less drama and more fun! i just realized it’s stupid to dwell on the bad things (or people) when there’s a lot to be thankful for. life is good! weird, i feel like i’m in a different place right now.a lot of great things have happened recently…sweet surprises, good decisions, etc. i’m happy and lovin’ every minute of it. yes, even if it sounds cheesy.

oh, and welcome to my spankin’ brand new blog! =)

you have MASSIVELY underestimated me.

last night’s prison break season finale killed! it was everything i loved about prison break - michael’s wit and so much more.

kumusta namang naiyak ako sa final scene. ang arte?

the nerve-wracking hell or high water episode last week was a great set-up to the finale. classic prison break cliffhangers and surprises and action, of course. the finale was a promising set-up for the next season. yes, PB will be back for a fourth season. yey! and the biggest surprise of all? sara will be back. yes, that sara. and you gave up on the show just because of her supposed death? tsk. tsk.

anyway, i’m not out to blame anyone here. comments ko lang sa episode kagabi.

+ forgive me for this fangirling, natunaw lang talaga ako kay michael nung nagkaharap sila ni gretchen. the piercing eyes are back. how hot was he when he threatened her and made the demands? i love him when he’s in control. very season 1, when he was sure of everything he was doing. and i love the fact that this time, gretchen didn’t have the privilege of being the bitch that she always is. lj said it all, ” you, thinking you can outsmart my uncle.” panalo at may i palakpak talaga ako.